A year ago began possibly the hardest time of my life. I was in a terrible state and was at the point of thinking nothing will ever get better and that I’d never have a chance again. Someone I loved betrayed me and left me feeling that I wasn’t good enough for him, or anyone at that. My dad refused to help me pay for or support me in going to a school which I thought to be my dream school. I felt my dad didn’t believe in me or care about my passions and dreams, and my mom was scared of them and hid from them. I had transferred home to a school I hated. I was so stuck in the city I’ve never left feeling more trapped and helpless than I’ve ever felt before. I was very depressed and was constantly overwhelmed with anxiety. 24/7 I felt like crying or throwing up, a lot of the time both. My friends were the only thing getting me through and I thought I would never be happy again….. Sorry to be dramatic but anyone who has reached that point understands what I mean.
A full year has gone by now. I got into a program I love at the school I hated. I’m following dreams just in a different way surrounded by people who truly believe in me. I brought my gpa from 2.9 to a 3.6. I’m with a great guy who wants nothing more to care for me, and make sure I’m happy and well and I want the same for him. I have surrounded myself with friends (new and old) and I love each and every one of them more than they could imagine. Without them I couldn’t have done any of this. I have shown my dad how much I want this life I lead and work my ass off everyday for it. And he is proud and now jumps to the chance to help me. My mom. My mom is my rock. I love her more than anything in this world and there are no words to express how she means to me. I haven’t achieved my dreams yet but I will. I’m on my way in my own way.
I am content. I am happy. Life is what YOU make of it. Never give up on your dreams. You will never be truly happy unless you feed your soul with your passion. It’s not about money, or things, or people. It’s about your life and what you do with it. I am lucky enough to have some amazing people in my life who support and help me along the way and I just wanted to say thank you.
